Wow Your A Loser

I originally made this blog just for music and to entertain myself when I am bored on the computer, but I cant help to write something on a personal level. Recently I have had some rather lack luster break downs with people who have had a prominent role in my development. These before mentioned people happens to be my dead beat father and a old friend who cant move on. Lets start with my friend. Its a more simple and easier to explain story. Friends since grade 10, smoked weed and drank together, played video games and just in general fucked around with the world. However I am getting older and those same things I have done in high school is not what I want in my future. He still stays true to what we did in high school right down to being a general dick to everyone. I had, had enough and wanted no more to do with him, but I get messages calling me a "Pathetic lil' bitch for saying I don't to communicate anymore". I wish to my full ability that I could one day fathom why he said that to me, but I could really care less. I can see how much less I care for other people and the world when I receive that from old friends or even new ones. Communication is a serious skill that we as a society are heavily lacking. We don't take the time to just say one easy compliment to one another. People have no idea how much happier I can become when a small compliment is shown my way. Another thing is opening up and telling people how we feel. A fall back friend who you can reveal every single action without the feeling of judgement. Obviously I lack said friend as I am pouring it all out over the fucking internet. But I digress. The other person I was so very adiment to talk about is my loser of a father. He left when I was very young and didn't bother to keep in touch until I had passed high school and started to move forward with my life. When he did come it was only woe and sorrow. He is putting both my mother and I through court so that he can evade all his years of child support. This is have a heavily negative effect on my mother as she must take time off work and pay lawyers and in the end it looks like he will win anyway. This and many other things that have impacted my life give me no hope in humanity as a whole. One day we will share the same fate as the dinosaurs and be blown to extinction. But in someways that doesn't look so bad to me. All there would be is the beauty of the world and nothing else. We are a disgusting race and  I know why we do what we do, because we all want to feel good at the end of the day and if that means it requires us to put down and cause hurt and pain (whether it is emotional or physical) to others than that only proves how much of a monster we all are. In the end its something we all must become aware so we can find those who are truly worth of our time and effort.
Thanks to: My Mom, Aaron&Jenny, Luke, Mitchell,Adam, All of my friends from work (Jaydee,Marina,Jenny,Mo,Mike,Corey,Tony,Lan) You help me to figure out the good from the bad, and without you I'd be in a place that no amount of help could get me out of.